Normally, my life is pretty darn good. Even not normally, my life is pretty good (it makes sense if you don’t think about it too much). However, on those “not normally” days, I feel like my life is over and that giving up right then and there is the best option. Well today, a “not normally” day, I had an astounding epiphany. Allow me to explain.
· I found out today that I didn’t get a job that I had applied and interviewed for.
· I realized today how out of money I really am. People say that money doesn’t buy happiness... but if I had money, I would be pretty dang happy.
· I noticed today that my car is nearly out of gas and because of my “out of money” realization, I can’t afford to fill it.
· I forgot my wallet today when I went to the grocery store. All I needed was some milk and some toothpaste and I forgot my wallet.
· I was told today that I have to wait until October to get my associates degree (which really isn’t that big of a deal – although, now I’m going to have to revise one of my resolutions…) and that it will cost money – money that I don’t have.
Okay, now on to the epiphany!
I called my mom when I got back from the grocery store. I was upset and frustrated and stressed. I just didn’t know what to do. I was seriously ready to “give up right there and then”. My mother is much more level-headed than I am, and she told me repeatedly that everything was going to be okay and that I need to not “give up right then and there”. She gave me names of people to talk to about getting a job; she told me not to worry about the associate’s degree and that it doesn’t matter when it comes, just as long as it does; she offered to help me out financially until I get a job. Basically she saved me.
Around 9:00 tonight, my roommate came in and told me that our friend’s mom had just passed away. I honestly felt guilty for thinking that my day had been so horrible. If I wasn’t able to talk to my mom today, I probably would’ve chopped all my hair off, slashed my own tires, and purposely started my apartment on fire – you know, like a “Wild Child!” I would’ve given up right then and there if she hadn’t been there to talk some sense in to me. I realize now that, no matter how bad my day was today – no matter how frustrated or stressed I was – other people are out there dealing with bigger, harder things than a dumb old empty gas tank and a belated associate’s degree. I don’t know about everyone else, but I’ve finally realized how much I take for granted – like a little bit of advice from my mom, or the peanut butter and honey that I can’t stop eating (not on a sandwich – just off of a butter knife. Delish!).
Okay. That’s the end of my epiphany. I’m going to try real, real hard from here on out to stop taking things for granted. Maybe I should add that to my constantly increasing list of resolutions…
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